its been quite sometimes since i last update my blog.a lot of event happen.but no time to blog.sec4 life is bz...any way update bout yesterday.in the morning i accidentally left my A4 paper at home.so called my mum to send it for me sinc eshe isnt working.so aisyah pass it to me.wen she pick me up after skul.the 1st sentence or even worse the 1st word she said was his name."Adli dah kasi ko punye A4 paper?" wth lah.i juz got to kno my mum pass my A4 paper to hym.i tot to aisyah.in the morningin the car got song 'not so over you' or something duno lah.my situation...its so irritating lah.

then today,malay lesson he forgot to do of give yesterday homework tat i my mum gave hym.he handed in with yesterday homework.so i sort of lah.then pass to teacher lah.then cikgu ask me to go to hym n tell hym to hand in late work by hymself.me? talk to hym?in my head was like is she out of her mind?so i juz place it on her table n walk away.half way thru the lesson.tat paper flew towards me.the rest didint even care.i heard sumone say not their paper.i duno also hu say alar adli paper wat.so i pick u put on teacher table again.teacher was like baiknye awak dngan adli.wth rite?to be honest.i was mad at hu evr hu said it.but now....i wondered y am i even mad. he is not even mine now.so y bother?haix...i guess sumthing tells me im juz to....i duno lah.i guess 1st love is hard...to forget...

I loved you more than I have ever known

Those starry eyes

Those tender lips

You made my heart melt

Then boil into a roaring fire

I now know

What my eyes could not see

You are the only one that is for me

Many nights those tears flew

Being myself without anyone

Anyone to care about the thoughts

Looking at the sky and knowing

Many mistakes I had

Many mistakes I have had

Breaking up with someone you care about

Is one of the toughest decisions

Any of us will ever have to go through

Dealing with the pain

And heart break is never easy.

We just have to live the days

As they are set out and not live in the past.

P.S good luck to all my sec 3 cadet hu is going for promotion test tomorro.hope u all get promoted

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hidayah

today is kinda tiring.yesterday pain havent disappear.today pain added on.n more homework from tuition centre.gosh.damn tired.i need a break.i dun think CNY break is even enough.i dun feel like its holiday lor.a lot of thing happening.no holiday.like no holiday.duno lar.

after tuition straight way go to my dads friend`s open house.the house was like near to hishouse lar.i duno y.but suddenly he came to my mind.i duno y lar.its been months.i should be over hym.but sumtime he juz came to me.everything i do muz hav relation wit his name.haix.wth rite? i kno.

last night i wished on a star,
for me to be right where you are,
and tonight i am here,
and you are not anywhere near,

i guess that star didnt belong to me,
'cause your beautiful face i cannot see,
so, tonight i'll move into a different part of the sky,
i'll make my 1000th wish and my 1000th try,

if this star don't work- i'll try another tomorrow night,
i'll forever keep wishin' you were locked in my arms tight,
i'll keep wishin' until you love me, too,
or if it never happens... then i'll stop lovin' you!

anyway back to today.after that wen to hospital to visit my aunt.she is feeling better from what i see.i hope she get better.n i reali think im loosing my voice from shouting yesterday.n my cold is getting worse.

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hidayah

well today is the 1st time i take the sec 3 squad as in reali control them like mad.hahah.anyway they did had a little fun laughing bout wat.n fyi im like teaching a gossip squad.very funny lor their reaction.at first no break all no energy.then say take 5 all got energy ready then cum to me n gossip.wth?im suppose to train them for promotion test n this happen.well at least no i know got warren to help me.not the only squad nco.yeah!

And the best news.i didnt get selected to go for the actual SI interview.haha.u all may think im crasy for not wating to get promoted but i still love to be a staff.haha.AND....sir will be sending all staff for the SPF badge.this means im one of them!haha so happy for that.

im so tired from yesterday P.E n today.haha speaking of P.E.yesterday floorball was funny lor.goalpost without keeper n so my team score haha.with Mr Amirul jokes.more funny.haha. afternoon meet farah cuz she wana return a book that is long due.n juz got to kno it cost her $14.wth.i can buy my own book like that.Anyway Happy Chinese New Year to all my chinese friends!

P. S Valentine`s Day cuming up.feeling frusrated sey its saturday.got tuition.if dun hav also very sad...haix missing that sumone lor...

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hidayah

im still kinda tired from yesterday over night at east coast with some of my family.but last nite was really peaceful wit the bed of stars on the sky.i would be better if there was a full moon.but it was juz a half moon.still beautiful to me...i juz wish he was there....then we played bingo like from 1 am till around 2.30am.almost fell asleep so to wake up the whole lot of us play twister. damn funny lor.all cant reach.its been like such along time we played it.well i didnt reali play cuz my leg is still im pain due to P.E.the 1st around was juz the warm up as we play longer.all the kids like so flexible like tat.all wana win.twisted twister disaster haha...

i gtg get ready for tomoro skul.i need to find my tie.dun remember where i last place it.

P.S Happy Birthday Kimberly!

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hidayah

Today is so damn nerve racking lah.yesterday got a msg while in the bus wit the others.u kno hu u ar lah.at first not reali serious bout wanting it.so dun feel scared or pressure.but wen today outside the interview room the whole lot of ssgt at panic.we also duno y?everyone except farizah. he so freakingly calm.i wonder how she so calm.even diana was like shivering n she nothing.no feeling.haha...wen back to the sec3 squad.i reali didnt know where they stop so wen i came they were revising their drills.n i was disappointed that they dun reali kno how to fall in and fall out.n sum cant even shout.tat i cant train them.nanti u all next parade be prepare to lose ur voice.haha.evil sey

After NP birthday bash for our Miss Nuri.haha.but i didnt reali join in cuz i was in full uniform. Whlie the rest was in pt kit.well didnt get to splash water at here.too bad.anyway Hapi Birthday!

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hiadayh

its been quite long since i update.haha i know.been quite busy lately.well anyway today afternoon was a bit crazy.haha.b4 tat i wana say sori to sumone u kno hu lah if ur there.well sori for making ur hair smell like chilli.hahaha.hey wat can i say?accident do happen.anyway sori.n sori for being kinda late.haha.

today is really crazy lah everyone feel odd one out for some reasons haha.but fun making dumb jokes bout each other.n btw im still kinda confuse bout the gerl magnet story tat zul mess up. haha.but i get it sumone is a gerl magnet.n some need a hair cut for some reasons...

lastly im thankful that sumone is feeling better.Get Well yaw...skul is boring without seeing u getting caught.haha

P.S love today damn much...i guess farah kinda know y...

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hidayah

today is the result of last year O levels.im can see how heart dropping it was for them.i cant imagine next year went my own moment comes.i would be like about to faint.i think hahaha.i dun reali have anything to post actuali.but lately by sitting at the back i feel that tis year n last year would be different no more fighting but we all got bonded.i duno how but we did.we make noise n do all the crazy stuff as normal thing we ppl do.well i end my post here.

P.S happy birthday Aisyah!

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hidayah

today is the 1st day of tuition at BMC n it wasnt that gd.cuz im alone i ask for grp n ended up personal tuitor.but the teacher was ok to me as within a lesson i recap a lot of things.from standard form which i got stuck cuz i forget,algrebra which i hate cuz its confusing n lot more even the LCM n HCM or LCF n HCF.which i totally dun remember.wat do u expect its been like almost a year seen i did the 1st chapter of the sec 3 work.the good thing is that i not onli learn some more shortcut for maths but the short cut of the short cut.u maybe wonder wth im toking about but i thing its quite funny...i hope i can buck up for tis year.its my last year in secondary skul i hope.i dun wana spent another year in secondary skul if i had a choice.well hope to learn new shortcut in exams haha.n the cheating calculator stuff haha.well gtg n do homework tat i cant escape from.haix...

P.S i miss my bff!!!cant wait to meet u guys soon...

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hidayah

im still shock as i just got to know more n more ppl who also are fans of taylor lautner.and wth i suddenly actually start to have a real conversation with one of the gerls i use to hate.she, me n the rest of the twilight fans were like comparing the roles of the movie.well the guys of wen like who is tat guy in my book?n the gerl was like OMG!u duno hym?he is taylor lautner lah.jacob black in twilight n more stuff n got a bit a scolding from our teacher for making noise n not paying attention to her by not greeting her 1st.sori...



then in the afternoon i was like late for NPCC for like 30 mins i think.but nver get scolding.lucky i guess.well its just CCA open house prep. so who cares.unless its training then im really dead. well its been such a wonderfully a long time since the last time i did campcraft...well i did the 6-men tent n the round lashing on the spar n the table with a new merlina ham which is still sharp.

ouch...my hand still hurt.but it was fun.really fun...n kinda tired now.ill end here for now...

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hidayah

its been days since last i post.been really busy trying to adapt with the new school year...i never knew sec 4 is this tough.so any way.im so happy that im not incharge of my own squad now.im so sori for the person who must take care of sec 4/5 squad.i hope u know what i meant by hard to control your own friend after experiencing it yourself.cuz im free from tat trouble n going to try out another trouble of teaching the sec 3.wth im talking about?

secondly my sister told me something bout the hym looking for me in the morning which i duno if its true or just a prank.to make me feel weird.i think?watever it is im starting to get over hym unless something out of my world happen.well no one know what the future have in stall for us.

today is like one of the easiest chemistry lesson ever.i understand the teacher fast.unlike last year.i guess spilting the class was a gd thing without some of the ppl i dun like in it.haha...bestnye.and today i just got to know amalina n amira also love taylor lautner.isnt it like the great thing.than the hym who say he not good looking or even worse than tat.urgh!anyway TAYLOR LAUTNER is HOT!!!!anyway i have to get back to my homework n such stuff to do.

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hidayah

hey its me again.can you believe it.its just the second day of school and its so stressful.just the second day n we had cover half of chapter 11 in physics.i think this year is better in some way.I landed in the class not actually a class its only during chemistry that our class split up in to 2 but i ended up to be with a teacher that could actually teach.And finally...i know how to do the chemical equation.what have i been doing last year?i really have to answer myself.

what cant be more irritating than having to sit with the people you hate in class?well guess what i had to seat with a few of them.wtf!ok im not gona talk bout them.it just spoil my mood.urgh!

i guess i have to get ready for tomoro lesson.ill try not to fall asleep in class...try only...not will not.and pack for NPCC.i just got to know that im still in charge of the sec 4 squad.n im the ic for the 1st parade...more scolding to give them and get from sir.what the hack im talking?i hope i could blog everyday.but i think not my mum is so not gona be happy if i spent too much time on this.ill try not to kill this blog

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hidayah

my hands are aching now.its almost 2 months since i last polish my boots n badges.with a crack on my boots.i had a hard them trying to make it smooth again.as in the surface so as its easier to polish.wasting my time the whole day trying to make them shine.but i think its worth it.anyway this year is my last year in NPCC.im passing out in a few months.i so gona miss NPCC.well i already miss all the campcraft training we had.experience and memory that last for a life time.
Even though i use to brag about Np but now i think its one of the best thing that happen in my secondary life.i mean...i get to travel n visit places that i could never imagine i could go n even doing thing that i cant even imagine.like campcraft...i cant reali imagine myself in the dirt n doing push ups and sit ups in the mud.but now i do and its fun know....another was the camp...at first i thought that going camping at Ubin was a danger but exciting thing.now i love Ubin.i feel like i wana go there all the time.thats the place where alot of friendship was made.without the place i may not know how capable i could be.... i think i should stop now or ill continue to talk nonsence about why i love and maybe hate NPCC..haha.

P.S NPCC ROX!!!

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hidayah

ok today was boring..i had to wake up earlier than i expected juz to follow my family somewhere to eat.i wish its still the holiday.i mean if only i knew that school start with all the shocking news.i rather stay in the past.i really miss last year.all so fine.ok not all but most of the time.which is better.it seems like i made a lot of bad choices at the end of the year.the biggest mistake ever.


if there is a chance for me,
if only i could show hym what i feel,
if there a room for me,
if only he knew what i feel,


i`ll tell the world what he meant to me,
i`ll do whatever it takes to make hym happy,
i`ll tell myself what he is worth to me,
i`ll do whatever it takes to be with hym.

i duno why?but sumtimes i reali do hate,love,miss "love"...it hurts but i just wonder why we want it even when we was hurt by it?i heard the pharse from somewhere...`Love is the closest thing to magic that we could feel`.i guess that is the answer to why we want love.or is it something more special that people would even die for it?well i dont have the answer to that for now.i guess have to mave on no matter what.

P.S Trying to enjoy life without you.

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hidayah

1st day of skul!!!

hey everyone!i cant believe i got a social studies teacher as my form teacher.i hope this would be better than last year.even without him by my side i hope to have a meaningful year.well taking a break from "love" for now.dun want it to get involve in my `O` levels.or im reali dead.my mum is gona nag till the end.OMG plz no...i dun wan nagging.tats the least thing i want from her.

well i cant believe that his class was next to mine.i thought that 4e3 would be at the 4th floor n the opposite blok.but no.it is at the 3rd floor n the same blok as my class.now i can see hym everytime he pass by my damn class.how unlucky for me.the more i want to forget hym.the more chances i get to meet hym.wth rite?i kno.its irritating me.dulu wen still together susah. same blok but different level now.same blok same level.haix...but i think he getting more cute lah.

the worse part was went my parent pick me up today(1st time in years they take a leave on 1st day of school)so weird...i muz say that.well back to the story.my mum went like."kakak!tu adli kan?panggil dier lah kite gi makan sekali."then turn to my dad n say"tu lah menantu awak " OMG!!!he is not my boyfriend lah can!!get that in ur head will ya?im goin out my mind if this continue.

P.S welcome back to school people!

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hidayah

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!gd bye 2008 and hellOOOOoooo....2009!!!!i never thought tat ill be welcoming n celebrating tis year like tis.OMG!!!!did he smile at me?or am i dreaming?hahaha.n wat did i do juz now tat they came to ask for my number n started to talk to me?haha...i think only one person know exactly wat happen in the begining of the brand new YEAR!!


well only if tat somebody was with us.maybe it would be better.i hope farah know wat i mean too...im so freaking HAPPY!i wont for get wateva happen.reali i mean it.for those dancers who got injurd for wat i saw...im sori bout it.having to go thru a new year wit injuries..haha.but all ur move were awWWsome!...

P.S HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone!

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hidayah