Woke up early in the morning!hmm..wat do I hav today?...omg!!its 1st day of attachment!!!haha

So..weeks past by.n I still am wondering wat he thinks....could it be?could it be?so wat would be? I hav been wondering y is it so hard to talk bout this...I mean...it was not this hard b4.oh how I wish I kno wat to do...I never felt this way b4. I hope ill find ans soon...

WELCOME DECEMBER!!!!!

so now im back to december, i have turn around and im gonna make it alright...

so today is the 1st day of the last month of the year. The best month in the year too... So today is the beginning of the a new month n preparation to a new year.hehe..so anyways...hehe.waited for december count down n ended up sleeping.hehe..at exactly 12.00 today.tats the 1st min of december...im sure of this.haha due to text msg from yayat.hehe...so texted hym at 12.00 and he replied at 12.01..tat means i fell asleep in netween tat min.haha..well it may sound lame her.but to think of it..it is quite hilarious.

i had the pharmocology paper.it was quite easy...better than wa i expected.hehe..then had lunch wit D!NG N B3LL...any some catch up times and then had ice cream with farah...n as usual strawberry is our pick n the new walls ice cream impress us.hehe. so here i am.infront of the comp.and doing my NR literature..haiz..well everything is alright when im with everything i need...hehe..anyways almost a month since last post.many thing hav happen as usual...me begin single is not a surprize and so... im having the time of my life... anyway hu need a guy hu thinks of hymself...so we are in december!so hu cares..

P.S im loving december!

With LOVEs

Hidayah

i bloody dun get what is actually going on...its like we are falling apart.i wish this could all go away.i meant at times he is in my mind and then he is gone.n soon out of my life i think if we continue to this...

Hey..wat going? Ill tell u wat going on..well 5 days ago was 1st monthsary..well its fine with me he doesn't do this kinda stuff.so today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY to hym...but...I'm out wit my nprc peeps n I'm having the time of my life....I dun miss hym at all.not even a bit...is it just me of its just so plain between us...well besides hym only...haiz...nevermind...now curently in the train wondering wats life is like wen I actually hav sumone ard....like really ard...

Anyways...me naz n nikki got some wristband according to our colour...n without us realising.the tag actually hav a msg for each of us....well..naz is a peason hu is forgetable n also not gd wit names.well kinda...so...the band say.."forget me not"....as for nikki...she is a negative thinking person...so the band msg was "think wonderful thoughts" I hope that will remind her to be positive during competition...n as for me the msg is "follow your heart<3" so..I guess I kinda agree that I dun actually follow my heart... n now I think I'm stuck in a moment....like the past..

P.S Happy Birthday Josh....and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY NAZ!!!

With LOVEs
Hidayah

So..as u can see..theres a cake n we are in malay clothing...well... Its RAYA and its Farah`s birthday! hehe.*all three colour contrasting*

so 1stly.naz reach 1st like freaking early.which i like!hehe.then wen to get ice like any other open house..n since its raya we got fire works too.so then ruben bear bear came wit nas. and eat while for zul!to get cake for farah..we got so bz wit the picture for the card which we kinda forgot about the time.hehe.all we kno farah appeared.hehe..so had more food n cake n a whole lot of fun!!! bff since forever...*i still miss childhood of not having the need to grow up*

us again

^^ im always the random crazy one.

Farah will be *PEACE*

Zul will be the *HUH??*(with the blank expression)

NAZ!!the batu gilerzzz.ALE!!!

love the colors!!

P.S HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY to my one and only D!NG BESTIE!!!ily

With LOVEs

Hidayah

So wat happen so far since i last posted?...well josh got in to london collage of clinical hypnosis n currently in philipines visiting his brother for his birthday n im having my 1.1b attachment with is a huge thing for me.in addition to long werking hours.i got time to go raya wit my X-ventures(rock climbers).i really miss them now.i hope they could make it this sat for my raya open house.n become the batu gilerzz..!So this post will be about mainly the raya outing!naz fii and mie*color contrasting*
all getting ready for pic at fii`s house

Wan!!!the big BROTHER of the team

Mr perasan Handsome!*still good looking*

me hilmi n wan!
Hilmi, naz , mie n Wan*family pic at me house!*

With LOVEs

Hidayah

all my fear of us

Well u always ask bout wat we are... Well I wan us to be sumthing more than juz friends but I hav my fears. U ask me if I am afraid that he would be going away after graduation. U ask y am I so different from other gerls. Well... I hav to agree I'm afraid to be alone after u graduate as u mention b4 that u always wanted to be a psychologist. N ur dad is willing to get u to any medical school for that dream if urs... We clearly kno tat I'm gona be here to stay and work after diploma. So it's clear we aren't meant to be. And y I'm I different? Cuz unlike other gerls that u kno back at ur country. I dun care bout wat ppl are doing wit the guys.I hav my own set of rules and games. So I really hope u will understand tat I really dun care wat ur saying and telling me bout ur past life cuz ur ain't in there but ur here. So yea may hav my fear but I kno I'm doing the right thing for a start. With LOVEs. Hidayah

Sentosa T04!!!

At Sentosa Express!
the gerlz of T04
Carel and Ben Peh!!!

Us again with Dr Alphna daughter(^.^)

walking to sapphire shelter!

peace yaw!!!

Tick Tok Tick Tok We Must Eat!

Yuan Jun n mie!

Henna in progress

Climber Peeps

Khalil and me!

Nat sand bathing!

1st jump shot * FAILED!!*

2nd one better!

*We are making the jump not the facial expression..*

Mie n baby gerl!

pre-paring again.

made it!

peace!

love the Wind!

me and China Scholar

Ruben!!

me n khalil!

there is delifrance!

the merlion

Pixie fairy!

Merlion Walk...

Ben trying to blend in..

Universal Studio...

Giant Hershey's!

So wat else can i say?i had a blast wit T04!!!

PHOTO SHOOT!!!

its been a while since i last logged in.well the last time was june...and now its august and i just got back from the photoshoot for 2010 hs booklet for O level peeps!!!hehe dun forget to look for me!..i have been so bz this few weeks n months.with training and skul stuff.its like so never ending...so im gona update the highlights of the past few evens between the months where i MIA.hehe.but not on this post..on later post..

well today was the photoshoot.out of 500 student im one of the 7 ppl.how "unlucky"!hehe.im like loving the life.but i hate waiting for the photographer lah.told us to be there at 9.end up they arrived at 11.everyone except me n josh was early.well hu cares.i still love the after product of the crazy and hectic day.hehe...

With LOVEs
hidayah

"The Last Song"

Someday you will find the place
It's the place where love takes over hate
Then you'll see all the things you do
Affect everyone around you

Then you'll see there's no fear at all
You held my hand, we took down that wall
As I looked at you with nothing to say
Now I understand why you pushed me away
I went far and now I see
That the only one I needed was me

Its been a while since I last logging.it was like the 2nd week of skul back then.now I'm already having my attachment.n I'm loving it.but sad to say.love life isn't tat loving...

I feel like I'm clapping wit one hands..one after another issuse occur..I use to believe tat.everything is gona be alright.but now I hav many negative tots in my mind...to think again.I can't believe I was so careless in fallin' tat I'm not falling into the rebbit hole myself...now everything is hanging...I gav up many things tat I knew tat made me happy n wat I clearly am.I don't really hang out wit the guys in my cca or npsu juz not to get hym jealous n watever the reasons are..I miss some lectures to meet hym.I may had lied juz to juz spent the day wit hym n I tried most of the interest he hav.juz to hav things in common...which I tot it would be great to kno a part of hym.but everything was for ntg..... ppl say witout pain there's no gain.my qn is...y am I in pain n wit no gain??if this wat they call love...they can have it.I dun want it...how can I be this dumb to think he was different from hym...I guess guys do hav things in common no matter wat.empty promises are their greatest gift of all....

More now...I duno wat I should feel...mix emotions tats juz killing me...te adio...

Stranger love...
Hidayah

its almost the end of week 2..and i think im getting bz wit everything...am i?i duno...wat i kno we are falling apart..i dun think is me or u.its us... well i duno...

anyways...I hate my brother!he thinks he is so strong...but well he is a cry baby..haha.I juz need mum to yell at him tats all.one more time he hit me.I ensure I will end up being in boy home.well tats wat my mum tend to do.since she can't handle him wit councelling.let the goverment do their job.I think wit this he will learn that he is not tat firece or that strong.

P.S thanks T04!for being there for me.especially carel n justin for being a listening ear n the jacket! And thanks Ghazi! for everything

With LOVEs
Hidayah

so...1st week of skul is long over.so this post is long over due.well 1st was better than expected.maybe its all the camps ...well in not really a stranger in the skul.quite familiar wit skul...n every where i go ppl keep saying hi!so i also hi!till nadia said im like year 2 student cuz i kno many of senoir.especially the npsu ones.they are like the it club.so yeah...good 1st day.

then second day was ok i guess only boring lecture.and 3rd day was jenga day haha.we are noisy..more noisy then the year 2 or year 3 ppl.well we dun need tat much of time to blend in after all....

so 4th day everyone started to be late for classes n well.travis is skiping them already!haha we are like the cheecky ppl in the class always noisy and slacking all the way.the friday which is the 5th day of skul only have 2 hours of lesson and off lunch wit yul.at night was the glow party... haha thats y they say NPSU sre the it club.they party was out of control..well for the year 3 i think.haha fighting on the dance floor?so inmature.haha.anyways i hav a good start of poly life!

P.S im loving this...

With LOVEs

hidayah