Its been a while since I last logging.it was like the 2nd week of skul back then.now I'm already having my attachment.n I'm loving it.but sad to say.love life isn't tat loving...

I feel like I'm clapping wit one hands..one after another issuse occur..I use to believe tat.everything is gona be alright.but now I hav many negative tots in my mind...to think again.I can't believe I was so careless in fallin' tat I'm not falling into the rebbit hole myself...now everything is hanging...I gav up many things tat I knew tat made me happy n wat I clearly am.I don't really hang out wit the guys in my cca or npsu juz not to get hym jealous n watever the reasons are..I miss some lectures to meet hym.I may had lied juz to juz spent the day wit hym n I tried most of the interest he hav.juz to hav things in common...which I tot it would be great to kno a part of hym.but everything was for ntg..... ppl say witout pain there's no gain.my qn is...y am I in pain n wit no gain??if this wat they call love...they can have it.I dun want it...how can I be this dumb to think he was different from hym...I guess guys do hav things in common no matter wat.empty promises are their greatest gift of all....

More now...I duno wat I should feel...mix emotions tats juz killing me...te adio...

Stranger love...
Hidayah