its almost the end of the year...tomorro is the last day of 2008.im gona miss this year.i mean this year has been one of the most memorable year to me.too many good times and also some bad times...im so not ready for 2009.nothing else to blog actuali.im gona do sumthing thats not boring for now.

With LOVEs

hidayah

OMG!!!School is almost here....im so nopt ready....for another year of drama in my class.hope i dun get the same form teacher n her teaching me.or not i would be so english like the way she teach n talks after trying to disrupt her class.urgh!im so going out of my mind.


well.another boring day of doing nothing except staring at the walls n the computer n the television screen n gain weight...but i did something different last night.other then sleeping late.well my sister took out the monoploy n force me n my brother to play.till like 5 am in the morning..Eye-bags Alert!!!but the worse thing was...them reminding me bout hym.Gosh!!So damn irritating.they wen like spelling his name n pronoun it as 'Along'.Wtf?!the fact is that if we were still to gether,he is their along since i am too.im soo......going crazy!!!

With LOVEs

hidayah

Merry Christmas to all my friends who are celebrating it.Hope you have a joyful christmas.Btw... i would wana say a very happy christmas to a friend of mine who stay up late everynight that i get to talk to hym n chat crap with hym.haha...hope you hav a great christmas...even thught its still early there and night here...im glad im friends with you..as i get to know about the outside world.wth am i talking about?haha...


today was kinda messy...definitely ill say...it all started with little miss someone who was late.u know who it was if ur reading tis.haha.Know what?its lucky we were not at a cinema.cuz if we were in the cinema we wont be paying attention to it.and maybe kick out of the cinema for the noise.haha...butit was nice...just like primary school.only wilder i`ll say...i miss old times...


im having a freaky weird talk with my bro.how many brother would come up and ask bout how to be romentic?i duno how much?or who would?but mine does...weird i know.i guess poeple wana learn but i duno how much of a help i was.well while talking bout it.Damn! he pop out o my mind.he wasnt that romentic to say.but his heart was.thats the part where i was blind.he was a boring but interesting guy.im missing hym.Its ok.if only i can have just one thing for christmas. i`ll know what i`ll want for sure.

One more week to school reopen.i use to be happy and like cant wait for school.but now without hym...am i excited for school?yes?no?i don`t know?There`s one thing for sure.next year is a freaking busy year for me.not only me of course.for all the one taking their O`s and N`s.

P.S Merry Christmas To All...


With LOVEs
hidayah

i really didnt hav any mood to blog yesterday.feel pretty sick.so i guess i could blog sumthing today.i didnt know what was up yesterday.i suddenly think of hym.stupid rite?i know.apart fro that,out of no where?i took my notebook n started writing.i dun really know wth i was actually writing till i was done with it.

If i have a time machine,
I would turn back time,
I would treasure the times,
I would hold you tight,
I would never let you go.


If i could turn back time,
I never want to lay my eyes on you,
I never want to know you,
I never want to fall for you,
I never want to be with you.


If i have the power to turn back time,
I would never listen to my heart,
I would never give you the key to my heart,
I would not be crying and,
I would not have been heart broken.


I think i must be completely insane to write that in the middle of the night out of the blues...
whatever it is.Btw,thanx zul for u kno what..


With LOVEs,
hidayah

today wats kinda exhausting..as i slept at 4 am n woke up at 9 am.only 5 hours of sleep.wth i was thinking.wen to eat at enaq,its been quite sometime since the last time i when there.i miss the hotdog with cheese prata.they have the best hotdog with cheese prata as far as i kno n tried.

after eating my mum got a call from my uncle.his car got hit n run while parking.wth rite?i thought it was juz a bit of bend of why make fuzz of it.but wen we reach there....OMG!the front part half of it disfigured...in a mess.well lucky he park the car near a coffee shop.one of the customer recorded the vechicle no. so wen to the police station to report.with my eyes half close...i reali wanted to go home n sleep but ended up playing the drum n guitar on the rock band game.the nitendo wii sure woke me up.haha...

The three rascal perasan for a day becuming a rock star.haha...even thought juz feeling2 only,
we had alot of fun today.i guess present is a gift if we make use of it n not think of the past which only hold you back...so since the saying says tomorro is a surprise...i cant wait for tomorro n the the rest of the up coming day of my life.haha...


P.S i am not a mini Book Of Quote O.K?!


With LOVEs
hidayah

its 3 am in the morning...haix...cant sleep.juz finish chating wit his big bro.he is a nice guy.i like chating wit hym.it feels like chating wit my own brother.even tho adli n adib is not close wit i duno wat reason...they treat each other like stranger and dont love a like,but they seems the same.talking to him is like talking to adli.their respond n their jokes are almost the same.but adib is more alive...well we talk like siblings talking crap.juz like how i sumtimes talk to my own siblings.


well my family n i wen to JB today.thought it would be fun as usual but i duno y?today i feel different.going to kit-mart was always fun to me but today i wasnt.theres a reason but i duno y?
i guess i feel thing differently...

Felt an angel drop by,

Tried to find it,

But it was no where to be found,

I guess i was blind,

As i tried too hard to find it,

When i tried to feel it,

It was no where near me,

That was when i realise,

It`s gone and i just waste it.

Only if i knew you were my angel,

I would hold you tight,

And never let go,

I guess it was too late,

As my angel just pass by,

Without me notice.

With LOVEs

hidayah

look at the sky above.ily...imy

another boring n tiring day...well...what to do?holiday,u know do nothing just rot at home..

to day my sis n i clean n tidy up our bedroom.guess what we found?all our hand made bracelet that we use to make.a lot of memories there.besides that,i also found a picture of hym.well under the bed...i guess i miss place it while crying sometime ago.gosh i miss hym.well what to do i have to pay the price of my mistake.no matter how painful it is,i know he does feel more of the pain.

what do you expect?he is a poet.he know the power of words...

I see the stars on the night Sky,

It was Bright,

However it isn`t as Bright as you,

Your my Shinning Stars,

No matter what,

You`ll alway be mine,

My one and one Stars.

As i wish upon the star,

I feel your love running throught me,

I wish you could feel it,

And come back to me,

As you will always be my Shinning Star.

With LOVEs

hidayah

believe in yourself....there are so many possibilites in life

got a msg from a friend this morning.i guess im not the only one confuse of love.i guess her case was harder than mine.so for the guys out there plz dun be playboy...u might not kno its hurting for us as its fun to u all.watever it is i hope she make a wise choice...gerl if tat guy say he love u believe it but if u dun trust i then forget it.there are thousand fishes in the sea,i guess he isnt ur nemo.so its time to move on...u deserve someone way better than tat...like Hilary Duff once said...

"Be smart about who you surround yourself with,

and believe in yourself.

There are so many possibilities in life"

so i hope u trust yourself and follow your heart...

love isnt finding someone you can live with.it`s finding someone you cant live without

well today was a bit disaster n boring...
well woke up late,me nmy bro was suppose to go to our aunt house to send sumthing.due to the late wakey-wakey n being panic...we went there late n for get to bring the stuff wit us.lesson learn ppl..next time dun panic n check if u hav everything wit u b4 going out...
at my aunt house...i got help for the blog skin thingy...i would like to thank sumone for the help as i got stuck all the way...thanks Zul!haha...tanx buddy...

another day without hym...i though it would be easy but i wasnt...think of hym everytime...damn it i muz be crasy.y cant i stop it?well i duno myself...i guess love isnt finding someone you can live with.it`s finding someone you cant live without...i think i watch too much as in way to much indonesia love story...i keep dreaming bout hym due to it..haix...

Why cant life be like on tv?

A fantasy with happy ending,

Is this what they call reality?

Where the feeling of pain in the ending?

Why cant we have the happy ending in love?

A happy ending of a fairytale,

Is there a place for me in a fairytale?

Where is my prince charming?

Oh dear prince charming,

If only if you could hear my silence cry,

Would you come back for me?

Or would you leave me behind?

With LOVEs,

Hidayah...